Saturday, June 13, 2009
one fine day. (weird post)
lol. this hols is really slack, which i like.. and its also really hot. i dun remember sg being so hot before. maybe last year i was in the cold state of ohio, so i dun remember the heat wave.
slack means i got time to watch my anime, play my games, study my jap, watch dramas. shuang. means i got time to think and contemplate also.
one of the biggest thing i realised this hols is that...sometimes life goes on the same for years and years, months and months, without anything changing. and then there will come along one single day, that changes everything. so weird hor. u can just go about ur routine, study, eat, sleep. study, eat, sleep. do the same things for years, and then in one single day, it all changes. its like, always liking the same person for years and years, and then one day, it all changes (example only!).
7 years ago yesterday, was one such day that my life changed. and for 7 years it was the same for me. when u're longer sheltered by love and emotional safety, u stopped being a kid. u know as a kid u always have such rosy outlook of life. i stopped believing in things like romance and happiness. i stopped believing in working hard for my dreams. i was more afraid of losing things, than of not getting it in the first place. i became sort of afraid of this world. i didnt understand alot things. dont understand why. i didnt believe that happiness is within my reach. tats just so pathetic. if i dun believe that happiness is within my reach, how am i ever going to get it?
about 3 weeks ago was another one such day for me. one of those normal days that turned into a pretty extraordinary day. lol. nothing happened, but it changed my whole perspective. it sort of made me realise that, i am still hoping. i am still believing. its like someone just hit me in the head, and i realise, hey, i still expect something out of my life! i still believe in happiness, in romance, in dreams!
so next time, when u are thinking, yea, life is ok. work,eat,sleep. work,eat,sleep. occasionally do things u like, thinking ya, i dun mind living the rest of my 60 years like tat... i think u're just kidding yourself. there will come along, one fine day, that will change everything.
1:15 PM
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Thursday, May 28, 2009
omg.
i was just bathing when out of the sudden i heard something shatter behind me.
the glass covering the lightbulb just fell and broke into a million pieces on the floor, in the middle of my bath.
and it missed my head by inches!!!! OMG!!!!
i could have ended up in the hospital getting my head stitched up!! wtf!!!!
what kind of fucking freak accident is this???
whoever heard of light bulb covers suddenly fall n shatter into pieces on the floor?!
omg. i think i am really really really super X 10000 heng. my bathroom is not very big. i could have been standing under the lightbulb, which was only a few inches away.
and i would have like scars on my head n face already.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. wtf????? a falling lightbulb????? wtf!!!!!!
8:58 PM
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
happy^10.
as promised, since DSO selected me i'm gonna be happy^10!!!
yay!!!
"
You will be attached to DSO from 6 July to 5 December 2009..."i can't wait.
12:38 AM
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
hmm
my first external jap lessons @ ikoma lang sch is quite intimidating. the lesson was 2.5hr long, compared to 1.5 hr at ntu, and e class is smaller, so keep getting called by the sensei, haha. and i joined the intermediate 1 class late, so the previous few chapters they asked me to study myself... *catch no ball. but anyway, its pretty fun. yea, really like studying jap.
have been wanting to blog this for some time but no time, lol.
i finished reading [
The Time Traveler's Wife], which is a really sad book, and i really hate sad books, but there was this passage that is really nice.
" As I stand in the elevator, dazed, I realize that a massive winning lottery ticket chunk of my future has somehow found me here in the present, and I start to laugh. I cross the lobby, and as I run down the stairs to the street I see Clare running across Washington Square, jumping and whooping, and I am near tears and I don’t know why. "
2:56 AM
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Thursday, May 14, 2009
happy.
haha, dunno why also.
little things that have been going well i guess.
- me enrolling @ Ikoma lang sch to continue studying jap.. cos i wanna take JLPT3.. just the thought of being able to study jap makes me happy.
- the games that i ordered online have finally arrived... so i got lots and lots of games (about 20 discs) to keep me occupied. What can make me happier than that?? yay!
- the sudden MSN of an old accquaintance, who found out that we share the same hobbies (WoW and anime) via facebook. 5 yrs ago he was my mass-dance partner during Orientation, lol. funny how things turn out, really.
- the interview @ dso.. didnt really go very well i guess, but at least, they granted me an interview. i guess i learnt some stuff from them, whether they decide to select me or not. will be happy^10 if they do though...
- the thought of my little nephew calling me "Ah eee yah!!" with that cheeky grin just makes me wanna laugh.
i came across this very meaningful phrase from an episode of one piece. forgot which episode.
"as long as you continue living, good things will definitely come your way."
1:16 AM
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Saturday, April 25, 2009
a new step.
yay, exams ended. so lets not talk about exams.
just been doing lots of things i enjoy, like playing games, reading stuff, watching anime and tv, 24/7 on the com, going out, carrying my kawaii nephew damien...
lets talk about friendship.
i think this sem was sort of a changing point for me. no longer living in the past, kidding myself with useless thoughts.
i think in life, its very important to be moving on. because it simply does u no good at all to think, 'what if i had done this', 'that should have been like that', 'i shouldnt have let tat good opportunity go'...
all things happen only once, and i feel people should always be moving on.
even friendships and relationships for example. people who i havent seen for years, will meeting them on the street make them my friend again? will going out for dinner signify we're all great? that seriously irks me to no end. if all these years my life has been without you, it simply means u arent my friend. not the facebook kind of 'friend'.
the friends i have, have always been there for me through these years. they deserve to ask me out, ask me for help, talk to me, deserve my every bit of attention. haha, i guess tats why ppl say im so anti-social. i dont like wasting my time on people who dont deserve it at all. and if their pissed about it, i dont care. because, where were they when i needed them?
so thats tat. and to all my pals who have always made my day, been with me through every ups and downs these years... thanks :)
hmm.. another interesting to talk about, since its exam period. i know a particular someone, not within my close circle, who always laments about poor grades. whenever i read his/her msn, blog, he/she will always say they work so damn/freaking/fucking hard and yet, they still get lower grades than those smart types who didn't study at all. i think that's total bullshit. i dunno why people think that smart people dont study.
i think smart people are smart, and they probably study even harder than you. i've never blamed my mediocre grades on my intelligence, becos i know i've always slacked, to a certain degree, more than those who are smart, and really study hard. it becomes very pronounced in uni level, where its really perserverance that matters. so, i agree whenever i get that b- or c+ that i have not studied enough. and if i fail anything, i would tell myself that i totally deserved it.
i really hate it when people start blaming their genes/parents/god/the exam paper/the school/the module/the food. watever. you get me. before blaming fate or watever shit, why not take another look at your notes and see if u can do anything about it.
i know i sound pissed off in this post, becos i am. lol.
3:10 AM
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Thursday, April 02, 2009
chemical apparatus anyone? from left, daphne with the air-pump, kangli with the separating funnel, me with the buchner funnel, shuwen with the glass funnel, and tracy.
after 3 yrs... about 5 semester's worth of lab and lab reports, we finally had our last session on tuesday.
some funny anecdotes i remembered about lab sessions throughout the years.
-my very 1st lab session. this bitchy TA/Lab tech was there, and she screamed at everyone throughout for no reason. Even the prof was scared of her. She was sacked instantly, i think. ha ha ha.
-in my 2nd year, my grp of 3 ppl were daydreaming away during one heating reflux reaction. the hotplate wire was touching the hotplate itself, it melted through and short-circuited. there was a really loud explosion and a flaming aluminium foil flew towards my lab partner. it was soooo dangerous the whole bench couldnt continue their experiment, and i felt that was the most idiotic thing we could ever have done. how hard is it to move a wire away?
-i jammed the UV-Vis spectrometer with the glass cell once. i inserted it too deep in and it got stucked. it a good thing i didnt have to pay for anything.
-i mistakenly used the conc HCl from my fumehood, instead of the conc HCl provided. The one provided was 2M concentrated... and the one I used was 10M concentrated. i had a nice time trying to salvage my reaction after that. =.=
-i once woke up at 9am when 9.30 was lab. I made it from bed to lab in 35 minutes. (brushteeth.wearclothes.packlabstuff.takecab.runtolab.) new world record =x.
-i once wondered what would happen if i put my nose too close to the choloroform bottle. would i knock myself out?
-i think some TAs are great, they deserve some thanks that are never accorded to them. and i think some friends of mine are real live-savers whom i am really really grateful to. ^^ thanks for all the help!
1:23 AM
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